5 Years Of Awesomeness!

Yes, this time the deal is for real. This is not another mock-up CSB cover, but an actual CSB magazine which you can flip through! I have always wanted to try out how CSB would look like in a magazine format. The idea has been haunting me for more than a year, but then time and circumstances didn’t seem to be apt for such an exhaustive project... until now. When I began this endeavour, I knew this would be a time consuming affair, but I didn’t expect it to become this mammothian task. But now I’m glad to see that it is finally done and here it is for your reading pleasure!

As I always say, my blog is my baby and it brings out the best of creativity in me. Over this past five years, with the continued support of thousands of readers and subscribers, CSB has evolved into much more than a mere personal blog. It became the voice of many who wanted to resist the continued stereotyping and misconception regarding gay men. It became a platform where distressed guys reached out to realize that they are not alone and found connect with its articles and readers. It became a destination where straight community could visit and understand what actually goes through someone they know who is gay. It has also become a credible source of unbiased information - I was pleasantly shocked to see Wikipedia articles giving reference to CSB while stating facts of personalities for the reason that they have directly interacted with CSB.

I hope you guys enjoy flipping through and reading this Anniversary special edition of CSB e-magazine, as much as I enjoyed making it. Special thanks to Ronald N Tan for sharing his exquisite works, Shobhna Kumar and Billy Graham for taking time out to interact with me, Danny Rose and Harrish Iyer for penning their encouraging thoughts on CSB. I also wish to express my gratitude to my blog buddies Jits, Derric and Phunk for always considering CSB as an important part in their lives.

And how can I forget CSB readers?!! You are the real reason which pushes me and drives me to express my thoughts, and I really do hope you will continue showering your support. Happy reading, I would love to hear your feedback!! ;-)

Check out these related posts too! 
The Return Of Craziness 
CSB Turns 2! 
CSB Now Straight-Friendlier Than Ever!

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The Return Of The Craziness

Yes, I'm back! Yay!! Forget everything that happened here during the past few weeks, I apologize if I caused you any confusion as a result of the drama. But it's heartening to see some of you so attached to CSB. I'm especially grateful to those who posted comments, sent emails and chat messages trying to show me that CSB is one of a kind and it should not be ceased or worse, get deleted.

I'm sure all of you remember our Phunk Factor. Finally, he came to his senses and now he has a blog!! Called Go Phunk Yourself!!, his blog can be reached at http://gophunkyourself.blogspot.com/. Phunk Factor had posted two entries here almost two months ago and you can read the further updates on his blog.

CSB Bags 4 Nominations For AGB Awards 2009

In 2008, Poonam of Visceral Observations came up with the concept of Avant Garde Bloggies Awards to recognize and honour Indian bloggers for their contribution to the blogosphere. CSB was nominated for five categories then and awared the first runner-up for Best Courageous Post. The second season of AGB Awards is now live and after tedious elimination processes by Poonam and team, the jury has announced this year's finalists. Out of the finalists, the best gets chosen by a public poll. This year CSB is nominated for four categories:

Best Off-Beat Post
Best Personal Post
Most Beautiful Header
Most Interesting Sidebar

You can click on the above categories to directly reach the poll-site of the respective categories and caste your vote (for me :P). If you like to check out other categories, the finalists and the link to their posts are put up here. And to vote for them, the polls are currently live at http://avantgardebloggies.wordpress.com/. The deadline is 28th March midnight IST (i.e., coming Sunday.) So hurry up and act fast if you want to be an influence in the search for the absolute best posts of 2009.

This is the return of Crazy Sam.

Cover Details

Model: Jessie Pavelka

Photographer: Bradford Rogne

Original Image Copyrighted To: Bradford Rogne

CSB Mock-up Magazine Cover Done By: Crazy Sam

Other Articles Shown On The Cover:

CSB Promotion: Dan Skinner's Photography

When He Gets Your Body Heated Up
"I Heart CSB!" Says Phunk Factor

Update - Monday, April 05, 2010:

'Yuva Dares to Bring Open Closet' gets runner up for 'Best Off-Beat Post' at AGB Awards 09. Thanks to all who voted for me. :-)

Check out these related posts too!

CSB Turns 2!

CSB Now Straight-Friendlier Than Ever!

Year-End Special: 25 CSB Posts Of 2008 Revisited

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CSB Turns 2!

It's been two years and I really can't believe this blog actually survived for this long! As cliched it may sound, this journey became all the more interesting only because I am fortunate to have you readers and I thank you all from the bottom of my heart. A special thanks to Vee for recommending CSB to his readers.

CSB had been running a poll for the past few weeks on "Invitations Of A Different Kind." I admit that the questions posed were quite quirky, but you guys dared to play along. The poll received 379 responses. Click here to get back to the post and see the results. (By the way, if you remember my earlier poll, I think it's time that I change my status! :D)

That's all for now. My present situation doesn't allow me to blog frequently or type long posts, but I hope that will all change soon. So don’t you dare to ditch CSB! :P

Other Articles Shown On The Cover:

| All For A Kiss! - A Crazy Confession From Sam | The New Face Of Indian Homophobia | 'Yuva' Dares To Break Open The Closet | The Indian Hunk Piyush Walia | Ask Sam: Gay Or Not |

CSB Mock-up Magazine Cover Done By: Crazy Sam

Disclaimer: The guy shown on the cover has no affiliation with Crazy Sam's Bloginess (CSB) in any way whatsoever.

Check out these related posts too!
CSB Now Straight-Friendlier Than Ever!
Year-End Special : 25 CSB Posts of 2008 Revisited
1 Year Of... Bloginess

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CSB Now Straight-Friendlier Than Ever!

I may be taking this whole "straight-friendly" thing too seriously, but I gotta admit.. it's kinda overwhelming when I see people linking to this blog (thank you!) as "The Straight-Friendly Gay Blog". But I always had the doubt (and some have expressed their concerns), would any straight person care to read this blog when the first thing he or she sees as the page loads, is a close up shot of a guy's crotch? At a time when we are trying to make others understand that homosexuality is much more than having sex with the same gender, I felt the banner of this blog was sort of evincing the message of prurience. We tend to throw our sexuality on society's face with vulgarism and obscenity. Take for example, the gay parades. I know we need to make our voices heard, but do we really have to resort to those obtrusive and lewd exhibitionism that only make people cringe? I have never been to a gay pride parade and may be media likes to promote only those images, but why can't we have parades devoid of any "vulgar flaunting of sexual orientation"? How about marching by guys holding hands of guys and gals with gals? It is distinct and it sends out the message loud and clear, don't ya think so?

On that spirit, this month CSB rolls out its new blog banner. Simultaneously, new badge has also been put up for your linking pleasure. Please find it in the CSB badge area on the third column. Also I have added a link to an article under "Must-Reads" section (appearing in the middle column). Conny Van Dyke, the actress, writes an open letter to all mothers of gay and lesbian children instructing them to let go of their intolerance, not their loved ones. A must-read it is! [via Pop Max Now]

Finally.. During the whole month of March, CSB asked the readers what do they consider as their first sexual experience. Thanks to all the 234 individuals who took part in the poll. Here is the result:

7% (17) -> kissing
18% (41) -> mutual masturbation
25% (59) -> oral
50% (117) -> anal

Another question was regarding the age at which they first "got lucky".

5% (10) -> 5-9
9% (20) -> 25-29
18% (39) -> 10-14
33% (72) -> 20-24
35% (77) -> 15-19

I should have also added another option "30 and above", coz only 218 people responded to this one. Apologies to those 16. Anyways, I had fun doing this and hope you guys did too!

So going by the popular opinion, I'm still ehmm.. you know! :P

Other Articles Shown On The Cover:
| Losing Virginity In Gay Terms | Opening That Closet Door | When Music Wins You Over | How Out Is Your Underwear | Being Gay | An Equal Love |

Cover Guy: Toni Sulankivi
CSB Mock-up Magazine Cover Done By: Crazy Sam

Disclaimer: Toni Sulankivi has no affiliation with Crazy Sam's Bloginess (CSB) in any way whatsoever.

Check out these related posts too!
25 CSB Posts Of 2008 Revisted
1 Year Of... Bloginess
Crazy Sam : Up-Close & Personal!

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Year-End Special : 25 CSB Posts of 2008 Revisted

The year 2008 has been a fantastic one for Crazy Sam's Bloginess. This blog and its readers inspired me to do a lot of crazy stuff. I can't believe how much energy and time I have put in this site. I really must be crazy! A few more days and 2008 will give way to a new year fostering new hopes and new dreams. So I thought I would present to you 25 handpicked posts that appeared here during these past 12 months and may be a little inside scoop of what went behind in the making of some of those posts, some afterthoughts and some epilogues..

Men N' Music

What a powerful combo it is when you mix gorgeous men with euphony. As the enchanting music takes you to another world, we are shown an artistic array of well-built sexy men. Of course the icing on the cake comes when the photographer himself leaves a comment on the post. Thank you Pat Lee!
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Gaydar For Sale Anyone?

Yeah if there is one, I am willing to buy that. I need a strong powerful one, which can catch even the faintest Q-rays from all those hot looking trendy guys. I think God was in such a hurry to push me down to the earth that he forgot to fit me with one. Phoebe has got a better gaydar (even though she ain't gay). One time we were lunching and there were these two hot looking guys sitting one table after us. Later she tells me that those guys could be gay. Blimey! I didn't even have the faintest clue! So nowadays, I have put her on a mission - trap good looking gay guys with her charm and summon them to me. And I'm telling you, so far she is not at all doing a good job. I think she is keeping them to herself. Is Phoebe's boyfriend listening?
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Coulda Shoulda Woulda Prada

This post describes about my trip to Goa. Initially I was planning to write on how sexy Goa felt like with all those gorgeous touristy guys cruising the state. Of course the bride's brother still makes my heart skip a beat. He is such a handsome man, too bad he is straight.. and married! But nothing could be more flattering when two handsome fellas started checking me out during my journey towards home.
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The Mostly Unfabulous Social Life Of Crazy Sam

If you think that you have come across a similar phrase before, you are right. You might have heard of a movie, The Mostly Unfabulous Social Life Of Ethan Green. This title is so apt for me. Most readers and visitors think that my social life could be such a breeze. News flash! - It's not.
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That Guy!

This one is my lame attempt in writing fiction. I seldom dare to write fictions because they demand lots of imagination. The plot for this story popped in my head when I was watching a Hindi movie called Gangster. There is a scene where Emraan Hashmi sings looking at Kangana Ranaut in a pub, which led me into thinking - wouldn't it be nice if a guy did that to me? Then I thought, "Yeah right! He might be actually singing looking at his girlfriend who is behind me." Then it snapped! This idea could really work for a story. Although I changed the situations for the embarrassment, the essence of the plot remained the same - the protagonist being mislead to develop false hopes, in the end leading to a heartbreak. I also injected into the storyline, my fear of rejection when I finally come out to parents. You might also feel that I was describing that gorgeous hunk with Nick Beyler in mind. Anyways, I hope I can give a second part for this one.
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Gays And Mothers

I don't know whether my mother can sense that I'm gay, but its a popular opinion (or a myth?) that a mother can know if her son or daughter is gay. In this article, I highlight about how a friend's mother saved him from his ex-boyfriend's threats, Whippy's very first coming out experience to his mother, how I was giving mixed signals to my mother even though they were unintentional, a heartening letter I got as a result of a discussion happened in a gay forum, and Nishit Sharan's documentary in which he filmed his coming out to his mother.
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Because I Love You

How would you feel if the dream you had just waken up from still lived on you for another few more moments? And how special that dream could be if it seemed like it was trying to show a possible romance in your future? I used to feel all exclusive thinking that I was the only one to have this kinda dream. But then thanks to that first comment, which put all those special feelings to rest!
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How To Turn-On Sam : Nine Sure Shot Ways!

The idea of CSB cover specials was born with this entry. This was also an experimental post where I tried to imitate the writing style of fashion magazines. Finding pics that could justify each point was a challenging task. But I missed one crucial turn-on factor which one reader later pointed out - hands, strong hands armed with triceps.
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Why Indian Brides Are In Trouble

It's sad to see a large number of married men looking out to quench their libido, which don't seem to get satisfied with what they do with women. But I'm sure Davis won't be resorting to that. I heard that at the bachelorette party on the night before the wedding, there was this guy who was awesomely good looking and he was so into Davis. But our Davis didn't fall for his charms. He had determined not to take that road again. Anyways, I wish him all the best.
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The Crazy Sam Musical

This could be the most challenging post that I have done. Whippy tagged me to come up with songs that should describe 22 situations of life. Now as if finding apt songs wasn't arduous enough, I chose to put the rationale behind each of those 22 songs. Then I felt, people should not be just reading my song selections, they should hear it! And so started the tedious affair of choosing fastest file-hosters to stream songs, finding light-weight and aesthetic audio players, updating my music blog (which was closed down later when CSB Random Video became functional) to link video files from here and placing the whole stuff without appearing as total chaos. The entire process was painfully strenuous and taking a hell lot of time that I even thought of dropping the idea. But when the post finally got published, the comments it received made me realize it was well worth the effort.
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Curing Homophobia

Yes I believe homophobia is a disease which spreads like a plague. These people need cure, otherwise more homophobic bullying, bashing and killing could happen. Every year homophobiaday.org conducts worldwide campaigns against homophobia which culminates on May 17th. In 2008, their message was simple and straightforward - "Homosexuality is not a sickness!" Now in 2009, they wish to spread the truth, "Homosexuality knows no borders."
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Have You Got What It Takes?

This post expands on my earlier rant, The Mostly Unfabulous Social Life Of Crazy Sam. Actually this was written out of disappointment when a guy canceled our meet at last minute. I wanted to make my mind busy with something. What came out was this. Yes, finally I met that guy after a week, but he didn't impress me.
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Crazy Sam : Up-Close & Personal!

Pepe tagged me to write ten things about myself and he expected "neatness" and "creativity", which put me in quite a pickle. I don't get in a creative mood just like that and also I wanted to make this tag too look special just like the previous one. Then one evening while I was returning home from work, a thought pricked me, "Why not make this look like an interview that we see in Reader's Digest?" And BAM! The tag found its way to completion. This was my second CSB cover special.
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The Gay Parade And The Media

India had its first major gay parades at Delhi, Calcutta and Bangalore on June 29th and how did the reporter from Associated Press start his sentence? "Men wore sparkling saris.." Another fine example for how homosexuality is often taken synonymous for transsexualism.
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But I Used To Be That Innocent..

When you were child, what did your parents say when you asked them how babies were born? I was totally grossed out with my mother's reply. This post became all the more interesting when bloggers and readers shared their experiences.
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The Cock-Out Attitude

I guess anyone would think twice before opening this post with a title like that. As I explained in the comment section, the cock-out attitude is really about the posture, the way one sits, walks or talks as if he is not afraid of his crotch being kicked (or grabbed) because he knows no one would dare to mess with that area (and that shows confidence). Apparently, some Italians found this article to be gross and some of them thought I was insane to imagine Adrian Armas as my trainer. This article also had the "honour" to get plagiarized.
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Bloggy Award Reviews Crazy Sam's Bloginess!

It was a dream come true when Bloggy Award finally reviewed this blog. I had been learning a lot from the suggestions they give out to blogs, in fact I was learning from the mistakes that other bloggers made. So when I submitted my blog and got perfect 10 in every criteria, I was on cloud nine.
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1 Year Of... Bloginess

This post marked the one year anniversary of Crazy Sam's Bloginess. I wanted to present something special, not just a post announcing the occasion. I thought why not make my music blog merge with this one and add a feature that can show random videos on each page load. The idea seemed fantastic, but how do I implement this feature? I announced my requirement at the Dynamic Drive forums. I soon got response from Raymond Angana that he has coded a similar widget and with slight modification to the code I would be able to get what I wanted. I checked his code, made the necessary alterations and voila! The CSB Random Video was ready. But the blog template CSB had that time wasn't suited for this. Therefore that required a long exhaustive search for blogger templates. Finally the one coded by Amanda Fazani seemed good. I began to tweak it according to my needs mainly concentrating on styling, colour scheme, CSB banner and ads, fonts and columns. With the help of BLiZZaRD, I then successfully installed the CSB Random Video. In the meantime I contacted the flash expert, Brian Wiltshire to code me a countdown widget which he readily agreed. I was also able to come up with a fabulous CSB cover featuring none other than Nick Beyler to glorify the occasion. Thus with the help of these great techies, CSB saw it's one year anniversary post on September 12th.
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Let's Talk About Porn!

It is an established fact that I absolutely love porn. Whenever someone talks about porn, it often gets dirty. So this post was my attempt to show that one can talk about porn without sounding sleazy. You can read about how I started watching porn and my admiration for certain male porn stars and gay pornographic studios. This article became the runner-up in the Most Courageous Post category of Avant Garde Bloggies Awards, thanks to all who voted.
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A Rendezvous That Offered A Mix Of Everything

Blind dates are most likely to be subjected to lot of awkwardness which is why many people don't prefer them. Though this cannot be exactly put as a blind date, it had loads of awkward moments. This post was actually reproduced from a chat conversation I had with a friend that night after the meet.
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John Miller's Good Looking Rascal

While flipping through the magazines, I always find myself staring at the John Miller guy. He is handsome and looks so mallu. One of the readers left a comment that he happens to be a VJ on Channel [V], VJ Neil. It's sad that I don't get Channel [V], but I bet he will be one good entertainer.
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The Right To Do "I Do"

Even though Proposition 8 was passed, America has hope. 47.8 percent supported gay marriage. Majority of the supporters of Prop 8 come from the older generation while the younger generation overwhelmingly voted against it. Since there is no force on earth that can stand against a generational shift, it is just a matter of few years when the voice of this young generation becomes a decisive factor in defeating Prop 8. But with Pope Benedict's latest statements such as the existence of gay people is as great a threat to humanity as the destruction of the rain forest [link], the fight for equality seems to be a long tiring battle.
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Why Cosmopolitan Is For The Fun Fearless Gay Male

I was dying to pen something like this from the time I was introduced to Cosmopolitan way back in Jan. I actually wanted to give a Cosmo-feel to it and that time I wasn't quite satisfied with what I wrote [link]. But this time, it was just perfect. And as per all your recommendation, I checked out Men's Health. I actually liked it and MH will be replacing my current health magazine. Even then, nothing comes closer to Cosmopolitan and it is still the best.
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Dostana

This is not a review about Dostana, rather it questions the marketing tactics of Karan Johar. Many desi-gays seem to consider Karan as some sort of messiah of the Indian gay community for what he has done with his latest production. So, this is my shot to squeeze some sense into them on how they are missing the bigger picture. As Simon, a friend at Facebook puts it, "Maybe the film does something for the sane people but I don't think it does anything for the 'Phobes'."
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The Safe First Step I Took To Come Out To My Mother

I guess the title of this one is somewhat misleading to make people think that I actually came out to my mother. But I haven't, yet. Some readers expressed their difference of opinion regarding the issue of coming out to co-workers. As I said, the end decision is left to your discretion. I still think coming out to co-workers is a pretty bad move. But then again, that is just me and I have some serious trust issues.
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Cover Details
Model: Anton Anipov
Photographer: Peter D Brown
Original Image Copyrighted To: DMK Designs
CSB Mock-up Magazine Cover Done By: Crazy Sam

Other Articles Shown On The Cover:
The Right To Do "I Do"
Let's Talk About Porn!
John Miller's Good Looking Rascal
Why Cosmopolitan Is For The Fun Fearless Gay Male

Before wrapping up this post, I want to specially thank few guys for bestowing me with some cool awards this year.

Unsung was generous enough to present me the Brilliante Weblog Award and the Honest Blogger Award. Pepe too showed his love with another Brilliante Weblog Award. And last but not least, Oxy honoured me with the Proximidade Award.

I know I'm supposed to pass on these awards. Oh well..

Check out these related posts too!
1 Year Of... Bloginess
Crazy Sam : Up-Close & Personal!
How To Turn-On Sam : Nine Sure Shot Ways!

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1 Year Of... Bloginess

You all were wondering what the countdown was for and now you know! On September 12th 2007, Crazy Sam's Bloginess had its humble start with this post. Unlike the usual, it wasn't a first-posty-introductory one. This was because, this blog was actually a sequel to my earlier blog. That one was born at a time when I was frustrated and confused of being gay. But by God's grace, I was blessed with a bunch of friends (some of whose words you can see on the second row of the middle column). I have no words to describe the effect they had on me, making me easy about my homosexuality, wiping out whatever guilt I had.

And this blog represents the confident Sam and if you have read that first post, you will see that I was even taking chance of attending a gay party! I'm totally comfortable about my sexual orientation that I surprisingly have no hesitation to tell my parents that I'm gay. But I know although I'm ready, my parents aren't and I don't want to give them a shock. Some times I wish I had an elder brother and I would have come out to him by this time. My parents would have been also fortunate to see the wedding of at least one of their sons.

Anyways, to celebrate this one year of bloginess, I'm thrilled to flaunt the blog's new attractions. Crazy Sam's Bloginess now runs on a faster-loading template. Now the blog's banner responds to your clicks taking you to the home page. And as you can see, the banner-image has changed - a more daring one! And I chose the earlier banner photo for the mock-up magazine cover so that I could finally reveal the face of this gorgeous body.

And who is he? Nick Beyeler is not a stranger at all for the gay community as he has given us so many enticing shots in which he wore almost nothing. Nick is a world aerobics champion, cover model and an actor. For those who are interested to know more about him, you can click here for the droolishious pics and the interview he gave to Ohlala Mag. Thank you Nick, you've been a wonderful bait to lure readers to this blog. Let's hope the new guy is equally "skilled"!

I'm really excited to show off the new addition - CSB Random Video, which you might have noticed at the top right corner. CSB Random Video features music videos, gay-centric ads, gaylicious clips, fashion shows, movie trailers... anything that I think is cool to share with my readers. Over 100 videos are added (and I will be adding more!) which will be shown randomly each time when you refresh the page or click the blog's banner.

A new badge is now available if you want to link to this blog in a "sammish" style. This blog will now be able to be read in 8 more languages with the Google translator widget. So don't hesitate to check out all these cool additions and let me know your opinions.

I thank everyone of you from the bottom of my heart for making this journey so fascinating. And let me take this opportunity to express my gratitude to Pepe for being an ardent reader of this blog from the very first post.

Also special thanks to the following techies for their generous contribution to this blog.

• Amanda Fazani for designing such an excellent template. I had an awesome time "sammifying" it.
• Brian Wiltshire for making the countdown widget.
• Raymond Angana for coding the Random Video Script © and BLiZZaRD for helping me to install it.

Other Articles Shown On The Cover:
Bloggy Award Reviews Crazy Sam's Bloginess
The Cock-Out Attitude
4th Time Unlucky?
The Gay Parade And The Media

Update - Wednesday, April 1, 2008:
The banner is changed and CSB Random Video is no longer hosted.

Check out these related posts too!
Crazy Sam : Up-close & Personal!
How To Turn-On Sam : Nine Sure Shot Ways!

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Crazy Sam : Up-Close & Personal!

When we proposed the idea to him, we were hoping that he would not fire our asses. But to our relief, nothing of that sort happened and he was more than excited to do this. So here's one that you definitely don't want to miss when this shy guy uncovers some of his hidden facts to CSB readers as we get up-close and personal with the one and only Crazy Sam!

Crazy Sam's Bloginess: I noticed that all your books however old they are, still looks brand new! You buy and then don't read them at all?
Crazy Sam: I do read them. But I'm quite neurotic when it comes to keeping them look good. Well.. the Sam 10 years younger used to be completely opposite, you would never have guessed those pages once belonged to a book. Then this sudden craze for preserving them look new hit me and there was no turning back.

CSB: We know that you are quite fascinated by trains. Tell us about that. Sam: Yes, in fact I'm insanely crazy about them! There is something so majestic and mesmerizing about them that I would stop my bike or car to just watch them passing by. When I was kid, I always used to get train toys for my birthdays and they even bought me a train cake for my 5th birthday. CSB: Oh, That's really sweet. Sam: Yeah I still look at that snap where I'm grinning proudly with my delicious train cake.

CSB: I definitely gotta ask you this. Is it true that you don't hug people?
Sam: I don't have anything against hugging. In fact I so wish to hug and be hugged. But something in me always tries to stop me. May be I feel insecure. It's weird, I know. I guess I might have a wider personal space and may be more concerned than Americans.

CSB: This should have caused you worries during your dates.
Sam: Can't call them as dates. But yes, panic attacks were plenty!

CSB: You used to have a phobia towards long-haired guys.
Sam: Yes, I did. As much I knew this was all too silly, I couldn't help feeling that way. In the end, I too grew the hair. That's how I got rid of the fear. Now whenever I see any long-haired guy I would say in my mind, "Hmm.. he thinks he can scare me with his long hair, but does he know that I too had that once? Huh! And he is flaunting it as if no one else has!"

CSB: What's that one place you are so dieing hard to be?
Sam: Amsterdam! I heard that everything about sex is legal there. It's not like I wish to have wild orgies or anything, but the thought of possibility excites me. Plus those Ammie boys are really cute!

CSB: What's the weirdest place you have ever been? Sam: How about the bedside-floor while two guys are going at it on the bed?? CSB: Oh my God! How did that happen?!! Sam: Well let's say, three gay friends having fun hanging out, didn't realise the time passing by. It gets awefully late to knock at home, so decides to take a room. One guy was naive and didn't see what was coming. After some fun talks on the bed, things started to

get hansy-pansy and this guy finds it uncanny and opts to take refuge on the floor. Next question!!

CSB: Sheesh!! Oops! uh.. OK, so have you ever had feelings for a gal?
Sam: Yes, during my higher secondary. But I didn't have the nerve to tell her, so I told one of my classmates about this and the whole god damn school came to know! And as an epilogue, that's when I received the info that another gal was having crush on me. I was quite surprised to know that revelation! Finally when the dust settled, I ended up having neither of them.
Please note that this does not mean that I am bi, coz now I am pretty sure where I stand.

CSB: Is it true that one time you were about to come out to your mother unknowingly? Sam: Well.. now when I think about it, it is actually quite embarrassing. I believe I was 9 or 10 then, and I was super horny even at that time. I couldn't figure why I was like that, so I went to my mother and almost asked her, "Mommy mommy, why my little willie is not staying little when I see guys in those underwear ads?" But thankfully, that conversation never happened!

CSB: Whoa! That could've been quite a shocker for your mother.
Sam: Yeah, it still gives me shivers when I think about it.

CSB: Finally, who all are your porn star crushes?
Sam: Haha! Lukas Ridgestone definitely. He has got an amazing body, drool worthy ahem.. and a butt to die for! And I could just melt in those blue eyes!! I find Michael Lucas hot too and some of those guys from Randy Blue and Sean Cody.

CSB: Would you accept the offer if you get a chance to do with them?
Sam: NooOO!! I'm a well-raised guy, you think I would do something like that??

CSB: Well.. er.. yeah.
Sam: You are friggin' right! I would grab that offer within the blink of an eye! Funny that you had to even ask that!

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For those who still haven't got it, this was a response to a tag! I was tagged by Pepe where I was required to jot down ten things about myself. That's why you got to read about..

1. My obsession to keep books brand new.
2. My fascination for trains.
3. My outlandishness towards hugs.
4. The phobia I had for long-haired guys.
5. The place I want to be.
6. The place I do not want to be!!
7. My brief crush towards a gal.
8. The awkward conversation that nearly happened with my mother.
9. My porn star crushes.
10. My desire to be in porn (only if I'm paired with Lukas or Michael!)

So now let me start tagging 10!

Paul Dark Knight Eliot Amit Anikate

Nick Queer Ranter Shaney UnsungPsalm Sam

The rules are simple!
1. Bloggers need to write about 10 things of themselves.
2. Tag 10 people and comment on their site that they are tagged.

Have fun. Muaah!

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How To Turn-On Sam : Nine Sure Shot Ways!

1. The Chest Hair Don't shave off your chest hair, keep it! Chest hair is a MAJOR turn-on for Sam. While sitting opposite to him, make sure that you have buttoned your shirt in such a way that he gets a peek of what is inside. (But don't be too flashy!) He's sure to get red hot charged up!

2. The Voice Your voice may prove to be a blessing to make him notice you among the crowd. Sam is bewitched when he hears deep strong voice. And if you've got British accent, then nothing can cut off his attention from you!

3. The Eyes

They say the eyes are the windows to one's soul. But do you know they can also open the door to Sam's loving heart? Blue, green and hazel eyes can make him go crazy about you and he will be tempted to look into them whenever you are with him.

4. The Smile Show him your charming smile. A dimple or two on your cheeks can even earn extra points. And if you possess that naughty grin, do not hesitate to flash that and Sam can be hooked on you just like that!

5. The Sense Of Humour

What can be a more turn-on than you having a great sense of humour! Sam likes to laugh a lot and if you can make him giggle on every conversation that you put, he can become attracted to you just like a moth to a flame!

6. The Dancer Love to burn the dance floor? Show him your moves, but not in a gayish way. Let Sam check you out while you shake your bon bon and he can be fantasizing about you all week long thinking about your feat.

7. The Cooking If you love cooking then you could have a more promising chance of wooing Sam. He finds men cooking as a manly and caring act. He will be delighted to know that you are a wiz. Tell him how much you wish to make him all the delicious courses and his mouth will be watering not for the bites, but for you!

8. The Driver If you love to steer your way on the road, then Sam's TOQ (Turn-On Quotient) for you will soar high. There is something sexy in watching a man drive his car. But do not forget to allow Sam to take control when you both are on a bike.

9. The Animal Lover

Are you an animal lover? Sam feels easily connected to people who shows compassion to animals. So if you've got a dog at home, Sam will enjoy watching you petting and playing with your loyal tail-wagger. (No pun intended!)

So what are you waiting for? Now you know what to do!

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